|Oll-e Oll-e Ox-and-Free!|
Guest post by Janie Corinne
When I was a little girl, my friends and I often played hide and seek around the neighborhood. I remember running from the starting place, relieved not to be “it.” The fear of being found and becoming “it” drove me to frantically search for a good hiding place. As the countdown finished and “Ready or not, here I come!” was shouted in the distance, I would stand behind a tree or crouch under a bush. I’d hold myself tight and still so that I wouldn’t be discovered. Was I breathing too heavily? Can I be heard? My heart beat seemed to pulse throughout my entire body. Only my eyes moved while the seeker ran around looking for me and my friends.
Finally the magic words, “oll-e oll-e ox-and-free,” were called out. Phew, relief, I could breathe again. I could come out of hiding. I would run back to the home base… only to begin another round of our game.
As an adult, I continued to experience that feeling of hiding, being frozen, and not wanting to be found or found out. I worried about not being good enough. I feared that others would discover that I really was deficient, not what they expected and needed.
I had several relationships that began with excitement and passion, but gradually morphed into dissatisfaction. I could not please my partner no matter what I tried. It seemed that when I eventually revealed my true self, my partner was no longer interested in being with me. The relationship painfully dissolved. These experiences confirmed my belief that I needed to hide who I was, if I wanted to have a romantic partner.
After I discovered Avatar®, I began to see things differently. Using the Avatar tools and doing the integrity work allowed me to take responsibility for my life experiences. I became able to stop blaming my partners for the failed relationships. What a relief!
I felt how I created suffering by pretending to be what the other person wanted, or what I thought they wanted, instead of being authentic from the start. Depression that had been present in my life for decades disappeared, replaced by a steady optimism and self-confidence. I not only realized that being the real me was the only answer, I became ever more able to stop pretending and just BE me.
If you yearn to hear the words “oll-e-oll-e-ox-and-free” and run into the clear from wherever you may be hiding, I invite you to come to The Avatar Course. With the help of the Avatar materials and the guidance of Avatar masters, you can quickly reveal your self-sabotaging patterns and the beliefs that created them. You can change those beliefs and start creating a life that is fulfilling and exciting.
Oll-e oll-e ox-and-free!
The Avatar Journal would like to thank Janie for sharing her story.
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